I know the feeling you get when you feel like taking that step that you know is right for you but you fear that you have to give up or lose something in return. That you will lose an important part of you that you have been conditioned to accept all this while. Only to realise once you do so that what you eventually let go off was never meant to be a part of you and that it just made what was important more obvious. So feel that energy that is guiding you to the path that you are meant to be, embrace it fully and step into that direction. Always remember that your history do not make you who you are, it just got you to where you are right now.